ten unsent notes to the æther or confessions from the chair

[sobota]

10. I'm glad that you're still angry and bitter. I've gotten through whatever it was in our pasts that made us explode. I tried, and you still maintained some sort of strange wall that just made you hostile to all my intentions. I've never been happier to say goodbye to you.

09. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. We spent a perfect three or four days together and now whenever I think of it, I think of you. It's almost impossible to get in contact with you and I am scared I will never be able to speak to you again. I hope that's not the case.

08. Sometimes I wish we had never met. Life would have been so much easier without having to change how I live my life just for you.

07. Sometimes you make me so angry, but that's rarer now. I'm sorry I'm always so exasperated with you. We're just too close sometimes.

06. I'm so incredibly lonely when you're not around. I wish I weren't so dependent on you being there to keep me company.

05. What we have is so incredibly new and I have no idea where this is headed but I can't wait to see how it all unfolds.

04. Maybe one day we'll be able to be friends again without this giant unspoken chasm between us.

03. You're avoiding something that should make you happy because you made a bad decision. I shouldn't feel guilty but I do because I think it could be my fault.

02. I wonder what's keeping us from getting to know each other better. You're way shyer than I ever expected.

01. I still can't get over you, no matter how much I want to.

Comments

[eternal-ot.livejournal.com]

The agony gets to you..but by the time I reached 5..i wondered if the feelings were for the same person or the author had fallen in love again...interesting!

[eska818.livejournal.com]

I find myself wondering the same thing - are these to the same person, or each to a different person? Very intriguing.

[adoptedwriter.livejournal.com]

I can relate to so much of this. AW

[halfshellvenus.livejournal.com]

So many of these sound familiar, with friendships or other love relationships that have gone wrong, or are still sort of 'unknown'.

To me, these seem to be to a variety of people.. unless this is one person at different points in time, with the birth, death, and reconciliation-or-in-between moments being addressed.

[kittenboo.livejournal.com]

I like this, like a confession you wish to make to or about people you know.

[n3m3sis43.livejournal.com]

This reminds me of when LJ used to be super active and one of the popular things was to make lists like this to people on your flist but not tell who any of them were to. :)

Was it cathartic to write?

[whipchick.livejournal.com]

Very heartfelt.

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[alycewilson.livejournal.com]

These messages sound so familiar to me; I could have written them myself!

[shadowwolf13]

I suspect these are each to a different person. Interesting idea. :)

[kajel.livejournal.com]

Nicely done.

[kandigurl.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure I have a person that relates to every one of these. Some to the same person!

[labelleizzy.livejournal.com]

i love these kinds of posts. the quick list that clears the head...

[barrelofrain.livejournal.com]

This is great.

[swirlsofblue.livejournal.com]

This conveys the emotion of the piece well

[hosticle-fifer.livejournal.com]

If these are all regarding the same person, it really shows the complexity of actual human relationships.

[flipflop-diva.livejournal.com]

So much heartfelt emotion in this. A great look at life and relationships without saying a lot.

[karmasoup.livejournal.com]

There's so much heartache, uncertainty, and longing in this... I hope there's a happy ending somewhere in the notes that do get sent.